I’m just going to be real for this post. The following is an update on the album and my well-being.
Basically, I’ve worked myself sick. I have 3 Fully completed and mastered songs, 11 others that are mixed and ready to be mastered (though upon reflection, one of them just isn’t good enough to include on the album), and 2 more that are over half done writing/composing. The final products are in my opinion great, truly authentic and good work that I’ve poured myself into. On top of this I’ve spent big chunks of time developing a website for my rap persona, SRVENT, and establishing social media stuff for it too, and other crap. I’m proud of what I’ve accomplished so far…
But I’m also sick to death of it.
The truth is that lately I’ve been far too obsessive in my work. I’m going to try taking a small break from it in order to regain some balance in my life. Gotta gain some perspective. I’m going to try playing videogames, spending more time with family and friends, and I may schedule an appt. to discuss my ongoing depression with a professional—something that has been recommended to me from people who love me.
The bottom line is that I’ve been so productive with my free time that I’m experiencing burnout. Doing creative work should be fun and fulfilling, at least a good chunk of the time. Lately, I’ve been doing it by act of compulsion. It’s been sucking my ability to feel pleasure away. It’s been dulling my usually chipper personality. Everything is harder, there is a heavy weight over me and I have started to succumb to self-loathing.
If you have any suggestions, I’d love to hear them. Otherwise, thanks for staying updated to my creative work. I appreciate it. But I’m going to try regaining some sanity now. It’s time to stop and smell the flowers.